heya alll. tis be hellz with anotherone of my manny dilemers cough, cough....

it all begins with my new job u c.. i have a job at the local newsagents and its also a book store that sells anime, (how convientant right) anyway and i guess u COULD call it a good thing but...i don't, well anyway, ummm u see, before i worked there, only guys did, and lets just say there, well, not that er, well they don't look like models and well now i work there.

i guess its a good thing business wise, i mean, they come more offten, but i don't like being followed about the store buy men!!! i mean, would u!!?? anyway, i'm not doing a real good job at explainging this am i, well.... ok, i wear for work, nice corprative style clothing, u no shorts just below the knee and nice tops.
but i've been noticing the people i surve don't look at my face...they look down at my chest, i guess being men they might, but after coming up to 2 weeks of it i got pretty sick of it, as any girl would, i even got given a bunch of flowers, from the guy who delvers newspapers, who is old enough to be my dad, eick! so, i decided to totaly underdress and go army pants and t shirt, only problem is...with my recent growth spert in certain "areas" they were a little tight, but being black i thought no1 would notice hehe, i was VERY wrong that day i got NO looks in the eye and QUITE a few complements on my, top... one guy even started up a convesation with me about it and how good and cool it looked, and asked me where i got it from... the other girl with whom i worked looked pretty angry.. and butted in (thank goodness, she was my savior through out that day.)

so i scraped that idea, since it drew more attention to me than not, and decided just to wear what i normaly do but my pants where dirty so i had to wear my tight waste high skirt, with a HUGE split down the back, much to my uncomfort, and a tight top, since my snake pooed on the other one i had in mind, my family couldn't stop staring, and being girls, i took that as a bad sign, but i pushed on anyway, which i regretted latter that day, i had boys haning round the shop, one of them was playing games with one of my work mates up the back, and i had a problem with one of the customers, and needed help, i wen't to the boys and asked "if i could borrow one of them" and this guy said "u can borrow me darlin" with a smug look on his face, it was enbarassing!!!!

and every time i saw him he gave me a look that can be describe no other than him litteraly looking like i was his next meal, his eyes went big, like shock, and a weird smile came on his face, it was scary!!!!!, he stayed for most of the day, i'de glance now and then to the back in hopes of him gone, but he was watching meeee!!!!!!! i've even had a friend of mines bf come in every day, and not talk to me, but to someone else and just watch me, and u know when u get little suspisions about him being there to c u, well i decided to put it to the test, and walked to the other end of the store, in the far coner, and bend over to the lower shelves to dust them....

i looked up and he was standing next to me, watching me, and quickly looke away when i saw him....waaaaaaaa!!!!!!! HELP MEEEEE!!!!!! i even got asked to reorganise the books, so i did, and i heard one of the boys talking to another one that i worked with saying (in a VERY quite voice, i had to strain my ears to hear them) "i love hot chicks and books" i hope that wasn't a reffernce to me!!

so plz!!! I NEED UR HELPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!
any surgestions!? its not like i'm asking for this kind of attention! i never use to be popular in skl, so why am i now?